things have been pretty fair lately. not so good, but not so bad. i havent seen, i mean, spent quality time with my boyfriend. he lost his job, &still doesnt have time for me. but when his friends want to hang out, he makes time for them. it kind of bothers me. but im trying not to take this as something serious.

things at school have gotten even worse. im failing 2 classes, which isnt good. im planning on dropping out of those 2 AP classes, i cant handle all the work. yeah im a quiter. i've also noticed that my friendship with cherry has fallen apart. i dont go to school much, i ditch probably like 2x a week. this past week i didnt go on friday, then this monday when i went back, she was giving me a stupid attitude. i dont know what i did. well i didnt do anything. so i dont know what the fuck her problem is. im not gonna waste my time talking to her because its not like shes a good friend anyway. it also bothers me that i dont have any good friends. none that i can tell all my problems to &feel safe about telling them my darkest secrets without anyone else finding out.

i guess we're going over to my brothers house for thanksgiving. theres gonna be tension since him &my oldest sister havent spoken since he got married. i actually want to go over to jimmy's for thanksgiving now. it would be more fun &i'd probably spend the night. but that would be a bad idea since im on my period.

one last thing. i still need to get a job. oh yeah, i want to go back to ROSARITO for the summer. ALL of summer.